Wednesday, 9 December 2015

Dreams Incoreporated Interview!

     Hello everyone! I've been extremely busy, so I apologize for not posting anything recently, but I have something exciting to share. Dreams Incoreporated is a company created by two lovely ladies named Cassandra and Ashley, and their goal is to help young dreamers overcome obstacles to achieve their goals. They want to help everyone fulfill their dreams, no matter what your story might be, and let people know that it is possible to live the life you want, no matter what challenges life has given you. They started a campaign called #EmbraceYourStory where they feature people like me, who have been through hard times but got through it, and use those times to help them shine brighter than ever. I got to answer some of their questions about my mental health, and how it completely took over my life at one point, but later got through it, and how it has shaped me to the happy person I am today. You can watch that interview here:

     What's amazing about Dreams Incoreporated is that they don't just focus on mental health. They have featured many different challenges on their series, and continue to post videos that give amazing advice. Like me, they want to encourage people to share their stories to help others. If you'd like to be apart of their #EmbraceYourStory series, you can email Cassandra and Ashley at They have some links that I'll write down at the end of this post so you can check them out. I highly suggest going on their pages, they post constant inspiration that target absolutely everyone. I want to thank Cassandra and Ashley for the amazing opportunity and for helping me #EmbraceMyStory to help other dreamers that are going through the same thing I have gone through!

Dreams Incoreporated 
Instagram: @dreamsincoreporated 


Thursday, 15 October 2015

It's okay to not be okay.

     The past couple of weeks have been pretty rough to me. I don't want to go into too much detail, but I'm very stressed, and find myself nervous a lot of the time again. I'm trying hard not to get into any bad habits, and I'm trying to remember to focus on one task at a time, to not overwhelm myself, and I'm constantly reminding myself that this will soon pass.
     I find that a lot of the time, when my head starts going into a dark place again, or I'm just having a bad week, I have people shaming me for being in that mindset again. A lot less support, and a lot more putting down. Although they may not be trying to put me down, I try my best, and it does really suck hearing, "you were doing so well, you're not trying anymore, what happened...".
     I think that if you're having a bad day, week, month, it's alright, take the time to just feel bad for yourself, if you're not harming anyone else around you. As long as you soon get out of that mindset, I think it's perfectly fine. If I'm having an anxious couple of months, it's not because I'm not trying anymore, it's just something that happens. Don't let anyone tell you that because you're not feeling okay mentally, you're doing a bad job at things.

     I may not be okay right now, but I know I'll snap out of it, and be okay soon. I think the bad times make the good times so much better. As long as you're taking care of yourself, go ahead and cry, take a day to yourself, do anything that will make you feel better. Sadness is such a normal feeling, and if it weren't for that feeling, we couldn't have happy times. So it's perfectly fine to have a down time. 
     I hope everybody is having a good week. I've been drowning in school work, so I am finding it hard to continue this blogging thing regularly. I'm trying my best to post as much as possible, though.

Megan x


Wednesday, 23 September 2015

Instagram Diary #1: Goodbye Summer.

I have been incredibly busy since I have started school again. I spend most of my time doing homework, and I've been really neglecting my blog. I'm working on better time management skills so that I can keep posting on a weekly basis, because I do really enjoy blogging. Since yesterday was the first day of Autumn, I decided to do a post on all of my Instagram photos this past summer just to have a look back. I'm so excited for Fall, and I look forward to doing another one of these posts in a couple of months!

Steaks, beers, and Cards Against Humanity

I started off my summer amazingly, hosting a bbq with some of my closest friends. Even though my barbecue ran out of gas, which means we had to grill our steaks on the stove, and a really late dinner, we had a great night, got drunk and played Cards Against Humanity. We all cooked together, drank together, ate together, and just had a lot of fun. 

RIP Papa

Something horrible did happen this summer, my amazing Grandfather passed away the day he was supposed to come to Canada from Ireland to visit. It was an unexpected death, so we were all in shock. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me. My whole family took an emergency trip to Ireland for the funeral, but unfortunately didn't get to see him before he passed. My sister and I were so lucky to have vacationed to Ireland the previous month. It's weird how we just felt the need to go, almost like we knew it was going to happen, but we are so thankful we got to spend that time with him. It's been 4 months, and it's still very weird to me that he's gone, and I miss him so much.

Jack's Confirmation

The day after we got back from Ireland was my little cousin, Jack's confirmation. I was his sponsor, and we had a really good night, despite some of my family still being in Ireland. I was in shock the whole night how big Jack has gotten, I now have to look up to him when we talk! It was nice to be in my elementary's school church, it brought back a lot of memories. 

Summer Nights

This night was a good night. We had family over for a barbecue, and sat in the backyard that night. Had some laughs, and a lot of beer.

Ireland, August 2015

We had this trip to Ireland planned for a long time, and we were going to have a huge party for my Papa's birthday. Unfortunately, we had to cancel the party. My Papa was always the life of the party, so we knew he would still want us all to have fun. We had a Mass and party for him anyway, and it was amazing how even after he passed away, he still pulled a great crowd. My family went to Westport for a week, and we had an awesome time. I did some archery, and we went out to have great meals every night. I always love spending time with my Irish family. 

Anniversary Throwback

My amazing boyfriend and I celebrated 2 years together. I posted this old photo of us, that I have always loved. Two years, and we still haven't gotten sick of each other. We have such a great relationship, I wouldn't change it for anything!


 I have always loved having red hair, and I've been a redhead a few times. I decided to dye it red again, but it didn't last long. The red hair is such a struggle to keep up with, and also really expensive, so I'm back to brown unfortunately.

Fantasy Fair

My boyfriends family and I went out to lunch, then Fantasy Fair. It was my first time going and it was so much fun being kids and going on all the rides.

Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad!

My amazing parents celebrated 23 years together!

Last day of freedom before school

I spent the last day of summer holiday's before school at a beautiful beach in Oshawa with my boyfriend and his parents. After the beach, we went to a late lunch.

Super Early Birthday Dinner

My best friend took me out for a super early birthday dinner, since it was a while since we saw each other. We went to Jack Astor's, my favourite restaurant, then went shopping. 

Surprise Flowers

My boyfriend likes to surprise me with flowers every now and then and he did a damn good job last time. He decided to "cancel" our Friday night plans by saying he had to work late, and I got really upset. An hour later, I got a knock on my door and there he was with a beautiful bouquet! I'm a lucky woman.

That was my summer in a few photos. I think I'd like to start doing this every couple of months, I really did enjoy looking back. For next week, expect either an anxiety products post, or a post about my birthday weekend.

Megan x


Tuesday, 8 September 2015

Anonymous' Story: Depression, Bipolar, and Anxiety

 After the amazing feedback I got from my post about anxiety, I got so many messages saying that just sharing my story helped. I asked my boyfriend what I should write about next and he suggested including other peoples stories on my blog. I thought if it was a great feeling for me to get my story out, I'd give other people an opportunity. I asked on my Facebook page if anyone wanted to share their story on my blog, whether it was to help out readers, or to just get something off their shoulders. My childhood best friend sent me a message saying she would love to share her journey with mental illness. I'm going to respect her request to keep anonymous, because she doesn't want to put herself out there just yet. I gave her a guideline on what to write about, but told her to expand, add, remove, anything so that she was comfortable with the whole writing process. I think her story is amazing, and is filled with a lot of proof that you do learn more about yourself when you have a mental illness. I'm pasting her story below, please enjoy, comment, and message me your thoughts so I can share them with her!
     For most of my life, I just remember being sad. I have always been shy and a little more than a normal amount of reserved. I guess things started getting really bad when I was 12 though- so I will say that is when I really started noticing there must be something "wrong with me".  I had been from social worker, to social worker for 2 years. I then had a mental break down in emergency, and they sent me off to some fancy psychologist who could prescribe me medication and make me understand why I wasn't like everyone else. So at 14 I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. A year later, he started talking about bipolar disorder, and borderline personality disorder- just the sounds of that made me want to puke. The last thing i ever wanted to hear what there is something wrong with my personality, that's the way I took it anyway. At 18, he officially diagnosed me with BPD. I stopped going to appointments and he stopped seeing me- because I was too scared to face the diagnosis of something being wrong with who I was as a person.
Early 2012, was the most desperate period in my life. I ended up in the hospital for a little while. I can say though it wasn't the doctors, or the social workers that changed my life. Not the CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy), or the medication in that moment, but my parents. For showing up everyday, for bringing me real food (because the hospital food was terrible), for showing me that for a couple of people who I thought didn't even want me to exist- they sure were there for me 100%. I knew I could never do something like that again, not because I learned to love myself then but because they loved me and I never wanted to hurt someone the way I knew I had hurt them in doing that. The key to recovery and self love is a genuine support system.
When I was younger, my parents didn't know how to deal with what I was going through. In fact no one really knew how to react to what I was going through.
I didn't even know how to react. I think that mental health is something that is not only a learning process for ones self, but also the people who care about you. It takes time to understand the thinking process, and I am so thankful to have people in my life who have been patient with me, and who have adapted to the way I am and who have accepted me with the good and the bad. In high school, most people didn't want to get to know me because I was and still am a little different than most people- at the time that broke me down and I hated myself for that, all I wanted was to be was "normal", but I realize now how lucky I am to have so many amazing people love me for just being me. If people judge you for who you are as a person, it is not that you are not worthy, it's that they are not worthy of being in your life.
At a period in time just sitting on my front steps would give me an anxiety attack and I was most comfortable, in my bed at home with my parents. I think that is because I was afraid of all the thoughts and feelings I had, I didn't want anyone to know who I was. I didn't want people to know how paranoid I could be, how emotional I could be. Now, I find I am more likely to have an anxiety attack when I am thinking about my health, it's kind of silly but, I spend a lot of time avoiding health pages for that reason. I don't have many triggers anymore and most of the time if I am having a mood swing, anxiety, irrational thinking or anything along those lines it is based around the motives of others, self questioning, or just imagining all the things that could go wrong. I guess my trigger now is simply thinking from the wrong perspective. 
I stopped all medication about a year and a half ago (with the exception of the random Ativan here and there if i really can't control my anxiety). I have learned that there is nothing more important than self awareness and love for yourself no matter what your diagnosis. a lot of the time, i feel like doctors push medication for something that is more about an inner journey than a chemical imbalance. The truth is medication doesn't solve problems, at least it hasn't for me, it is only a crutch while you are figuring out how to cope with strong emotions and fears you sometimes don't know the root of. I would say honestly, that medication has made things for me worse. It is sad to say because medication helps so many people, but I avoid taking any pills because I have taken so many
that now I have anxiety even taking Tylenol. I won't even take Ativan unless someone is with me so if anything happens, someone will be there to help. I have been on too many medications to count on both hands and I feel like for me it is not the answer, and sometimes taking certain medication made things worse. I felt like a guinea pig.
       Meditation and breathing exercises have helped me a lot , and learning to accept myself has been a huge stepping stone for who I am and what I want to grow to be. In these things, I have taught myself how to pin point when I am having an episode and when my thinking is irrational. I have made peace with the past, the present and the future because I love who I am, and I would never change a thing. I think that once I realized that anxiety, depression and even borderline "personality" disorder doesn't define you as a person I was much happier. I thought that my diagnosis meant I was sick for the rest of my life and there was nothing I could do about it- but now I use it to my advantage. With such strong emotion and constant thinking habits comes great pleasure and great intelligence. It is all about the way you look at the world and yourself; There is always more than one perspective, to one person I might be mad out of my mind and emotionally unstable at times, but if i am that's okay. I could never be the understanding, caring, cognitive thinker I am today without that. I never would have pushed myself to see all sides of things, and love everyone and everything exactly the way they are without hesitation. Sometimes, I even believe that I might be happier and enjoying life more than some people without a mental illness. 
So I guess all in all, and why I wanted to do this for Megan and her wonderful blog that has helped me so much to understand sometimes talking about it can be a good thing, not only for yourself but for others- is to let everyone know that mental illness does not restrict you from living the happiest, breath taking life you possibly can. Sure, it can make things a little more difficult at times, but at the end of the day you have a perspective that not a lot of people have.
Getting there can be hard but anything is possible with the right amount of time and effort. You always have the ability to choose who you want to be, never let a diagnosis take that away from you. Never let mental health, make you feel isolated, it isn't always a bad thing to be different. 

Ativan- This medication is used to treat anxietyLorazepam belongs to a class of drugs known as benzodiazepines which act on the brain and nerves (central nervous system) to produce a calming effect. 

     I think this story is great, mostly because I was in her life during her darkest time, and I've seen the person who she has become today and it's amazing that you can once think your life is over, but grow to be stronger than ever. I can really relate to this story because I know what it's like to be frustrated about people not understanding what you're going through. I learned first hand that it's really important to stay patient, and not lose your temper when your family and friends don't get it, because mental illness is not a subject people will typically know about since there is such a stigma behind it, and it is a learning process for both you, and the people around you. I want to thank you for reading, and also give a huge thanks to my friend for sharing her inspiring story and tips. If you'd like to share your story on my blog, please feel free to send me a message, because I think it's a great way to stop the stigma.


Saturday, 5 September 2015

FOTD: Saturday Errands and Lunch // Quick Thank You!

One thing I realized in the process of this post, was one, it is much harder to take a good picture of concealer on a DSLR camera than it seems and two, most likely, a lot of my readers don't really care about what I put on my face, according to my stats. But, this is something I enjoy reading on other blogs, and something I enjoy writing about, so I'm going to do it anyway. Please, please, please scroll down right to the end anyway, as I would like to say a few words to everyone who reads! 

So my skin is pretty good to me, and I absolutely hate the feeling of foundation on my face, especially in the summer. So I only wear concealer, and powder. The concealer I use is Rimmel's Wake Me Up Concealer, and the powder I use is Mac's pro longwear. Since I have dry skin, I always spray fix plus on my face after the powder, just to add moisture.

For my eyebrows, I prefer using powder than anything else. Some days I'll use Soap & Glory's Archery brow pencil, but today I decided to go for Mac's eyeshadow in charcoal brown. This is a really nice ashy brown colour, so it looks really natural.

For eyes, I kept it fairly simple. I used Mac's All That Glitters all over the lid, Swiss Chocolate in the crease, and Venus from the Urban Decay Naked Basics Pallet as a highlight. I also used foxy as a transitioning colour.

For eyeliner I used Bobbi Brown's longwear gel eyeliner in black ink.

As for mascara, I used Roller Lash by Benefit. Not my first choice. Although it makes your eyelashes look super long, I go for more volume in mascara because I don't really need length. My favourite is Better Than Sex by Two Faced.

For blush, I went for Hervana by Benefit. I think it's a beautiful colour that really suits my skin tone. 

To contour, I always use Mac's blush in Taupe. I find bronzers way too orange, and it doesn't look natural. Taupe is a natural, greyish brown, that looks more so like natural shadows. You can only buy this blush at pro stores, and you can also only buy it out of the compact.

And finally, for lips I used my all time favourite lip liner which is Whirl by Mac.

Thanks for reading a super in depth/photo filled post about my face of the day. Now, I would like to just say a few things regarding the feedback I have had on my blog...

I have had amazing support and help from family and friends about this blog, and it's made me realized how blessed I was. I've had this blog for years, but never shared it and constantly deleted posts because the thought of putting myself out there terrified me. After finally sharing my blog with the world, I have gotten such amazing feedback. Especially after my post about my mental illness journey, I have gotten so many messages from people not only I was close to, but also people I've barely got a chance to know, and I want you to know that every single message I have gotten has really warmed my heart, and put a lot of confidence in me. So I just wanted to thank everyone who has shared, read, contacted me, and even just liked my Facebook page, because it actually means the world, and it puts a huge smile on my face every time. When you have a blog on Blogger, you are able to see the statistics of where your blog has been searched, viewed, and everything like that, and it has actually blown up pretty quickly at least a lot faster than I expected. It makes me wonder why I didn't start sooner. So again, thank you to everyone who has supported. Whether we talk everyday, or don't talk at all, your kind words, comments, and messages have completely made my year.

Love, Megan


Saturday, 29 August 2015

Mental Illness Journey

I was inspired by Anna to write about my journey with mental illness, after reading her well written blog post about her depression, and where she is now. You can read her blog post here.

     I had some unfortunate events that happened to me as a child, that still have made an impact on me today. I'd rather not go too deep into them, but after the storm, I thought everything was okay. I didn't think anything would effect me long term.
     When I was 16 years old, I was home alone while my family was out shopping. I remember walking into my room and suddenly my throat closed up. I got very hot, and my mind was cluttered. I was shaking, my hands started getting numb, and I was hyperventilating. I remember being able to feel my fast heartbeat in my head. I look back on it now and think of how stupid it sounds, but I honestly thought I was about to die. I went into my bed, waiting for this feeling to stop. It was exhausting, so I fell asleep after an hour. When I woke up, I had that feeling multiple times that day. I talked to my mom about it, and we did some research. I decided to go to the doctors the following week. The week before I went to the doctors was the longest week of my life. I was nervous, all day, and I couldn't get any thoughts straight. I would get that horrible adrenaline feeling, and I would even experience physical illness. My doctor diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder, and panic disorder. In case you don't know, panic disorder is diagnosed when you have panic attacks coming out of nowhere. You may not have a trigger at all, you could be as calm as you can be, and a panic attack would come along. She prescribed me medication, and said that it was going to make me extremely drowsy. She told me to take a quarter of the medication before bed, because if I took a full one I could sleep through my alarm. That medication actually had no affect on me, I would take a full one during the day. My doctor prescribed me a stronger medication, and this is where things went horrible. This medication had horrible side effects on me. While it might be perfect for someone else, it just didn't mix with me. I started getting horrible urges and feelings. If you have anxiety or depression, you might know that those two things come hand in hand. I got severely depressed. I lost a lot of weight, I skipped so much school, I was too nervous to ever leave my house, I stopped eating, and worst of all, I lost the amazing relationship I had with my family because I hated life, and I took it out on them. I can't thank my dad, mom, and sister enough for putting up with the nightmare I was. I was also applying to be a graphic design student, which required a portfolio. This also was a lot of stress, I found myself crying while painting (sounds hilarious now). I managed to graduate high school with amazing marks, and get into my graphic design program. The summer before college, I met my boyfriend, Karl. I was never going to tell him of my panic, anxiety, and depression because I didn't want to scare him away. But because it's a huge part of my life, I felt I had to. That summer, I was anxiety free. I never felt so happy. Having Karl come into my life was such a positive change, that I was never anxious. I thought I was cured, and I was ecstatic. Karl got together with me not knowing much about anxiety, and he went above and beyond to help me. He researched more about the illness, he was patient with me, and he listened to what I had to say, now he's an expert on what to do when I have a panic attack. Thank you, Karl. You didn't have to do that for me but it means the world that you did.
Actual photo my cousin snapped of Karl hugging me while I was nervous!

    When I started school, things started to go downhill. I used to love art, but doing it for professors, until the deadline, and projects I didn't want to make, made something that was once a hobby, a nightmare. I went back to being anxious 24/7, and would have multiple panic attacks at school. I thought the best thing to do was to leave school. When I left school, I was stuck at a horrible job with a horrible manager, which made leaving my house hell. My very supportive dad said, if she is making your anxiety worst, then quit. So I did. I was also in therapy at the time, which was one of the best things I've done for anxiety. My therapist became a person I loved seeing every week, and she agreed that I had general anxiety disorder, depression, ocd, and panic disorder. The only reason I'm not in it now was because I missed a couple of appointments because of things going on, and I was too scared to call back (ironic, huh?). Cognitive Behavioural Therapy was the best decision I have ever made, and I would definitely be going back to it. I learned so much about myself. This part of my life is where my depression was worst. I started abusing the medication I had to make me sleep all of the time, because I didn't want to be awake. I was nervous all the time, having multiple panic attacks. I had a huge hospital scare, and that was a huge wake up call, and I decided I needed to take control of my life. That was about a year and a half ago.
     I still have my ups and downs with anxiety. I might have one really bad week, but I don't dwell on it because I know that week isn't going to last forever. I also have my amazing support systems, my mom, dad, sister, and boyfriend who are so great and have come along way with understanding what I'm going through. 
     Right now, I'm on medication. I have developed my own little tips and tricks that help me when my anxiety is through the roof, and I have also learned from other people suffering. If I can say one thing, its that please don't keep quiet. My whole journey with anxiety, I thought I was meant to be embarrassed of it, and I suffered in silence. Opening up was the best thing I have ever done. It was terrifying, but the amazing feedback I have gotten have overwhelmed me with joy, and inspiration to write more. I was once at rock bottom, but I'm so glad I have never stopped fighting, because my life is amazing right now. I'm starting school again in September, and I'm ready to kick ass at it. I see a bright, successful future ahead of me, despite my anxiety.


Thursday, 20 August 2015

Get to Know Me: 25 Questions Tag

Since I'm pretty new to this whole blogging thing, I thought it would be a good idea to write a bit about myself. I have got nothing but positive feedback on this blog so far, so I'm very inspired and excited to continue. I didn't know where to start about myself, so I decided to take the easy way out and just answer the 25 "about me" questions I've seen floating around blogger.

What is your middle name? Clara, named after my grandma.
What was favourite subject at school? Anything art related, communication technology is where I found my love for all things digital art, like graphic design, animation, film, etc.
What is your favourite drink? Alcoholic, pinot grigio, always. Non alcoholic, Dr. Pepper or green tea Arizona. I'm also a tea addict, and get headaches if I don't have a cup of English breakfast tea.
What is your favourite song at the moment? It is, and forever will be Video Games by Lana Del Rey.
What is your favourite food? Too many to list...nachos, bruschetta, butter chicken, poutine.
What is the last thing you bought? Probably food, but if we aren't counting that, I went on a huge clothing and product shopping spree recently.
Favourite book of all time? I love 1984,  The Great Gatsby, Game of Thrones, and I've always been obsessed with the Series of Unfortunate Events.
Favourite Colour? Grey, boring.
Do you have any pets? Not anymore, sadly.
Favourite Perfume? Viva la Juicy (basic, I know).
Favourite Holiday? (past) My visit to Ireland on my 17 birthday, or when my grandparents got my whole family a huge house in Florida. (Future) Would love to go to Germany.
Are you married? I'm only 20!
Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times? Too many to count. Ever since my first year alive, I've been to Ireland multiple times a year, most of my family lives there.
Do you speak any other language? There was a point in my life where I was learning German, my mom speaks it and we would sit in the car, listening to instruction CD's. I got pretty good, I don't know why I didn't keep up with it.
How many siblings do you have? One sister that is 15 months older, she also happens to be my best friend.
What is your favourite shop? Top Shop, ASOS, H&M.
Favourite restaurant? Sushi Time, downtown Toronto! Or Jack Astor's.
When was the last time you cried? Pretty recently, I lost a family member a couple of months ago, and I still get really upset thinking about it.
Favourite Blog? The Wonder Forest. An amazing graphic designer.
Favourite Movie? Kill Bill and Sucker Punch.
Favourite TV show? My boyfriend and I are really into Game of Thrones. I also like Desperate Housewives, Bates Motel, Doctor Who, and Modern Family.
PC or Mac? Mac for art/every day things, PC for gaming things.
What phone do you have? iPhone 5s, hopefully switching to Android soon.
How tall are you? 5'4-5'5...I think.
Can you cook? Yes! I'd like to think so. 


Tuesday, 7 April 2015

No.7 Hot Cloth Cleanser Review

     I have always been interested in beauty and skin care. I constantly read reviews on products, watch beauty haul videos, and also a lot of skin care videos. If you're anything like me, you've probably heard of the Liz Earle Cleanse & Polish. This is something I really wanted to try, but unfortunately, I haven't been able to find any Liz Earle products in Canada. My aunt in Ireland however, loved Liz Earle products and promised to take me to get some the next time I was there. 
     On my recent trip to Ireland, I was excited to try out the hot cloth cleanser for the first time. My aunt informed me that she ran out, and instead of repurchasing the very expensive product, she found one from No.7 which was half the price.

     I tried it out anyway, No.7 can be pricy in Canada. I rubbed the cleanser on dry skin, and watched as it broke down all of my makeup. I rubbed it in circular motions, it felt like a nice massage. After rubbing it in for a minute or two, I had black makeup all over my face. I wasn't sure if I was using the product correctly, but I wasn't sure how a wet cloth would remove all of the black on my face. I ran the cloth it came with under hot water, then just put it on my face. I let the steam open up my pores, then wiped off the cleanser. I was really surprised to see how clean my face was. This cleanser left my skin soft, clean, and it also smelt really nice.  
     I ended up going out to by the No.7 cleanser instead of the Liz Earle one since it was half the price. I bought one for my mom also, who absolutely loves it. If you're interested in the Liz Earle Cleanse & Polish, but are on a budget, or are just looking for a new cleanser, I recommend this one. It's not only good for night time, but also leaves your skin feeling fresh in the mornings.